Mom hasn't slept in 24 hours.

Mom has been awake now since yesterday morning, and it doesn't look like she is going to sleep anytime soon, I know she is fitting sleep by calling her favorite brother's name every other breath. She has been up twice today, and eaten both time, and will want up again here in a short while and will have a snack of cookies and milk. When she calls her brother's name, I go in to see if she needs something and she settles down. to me it means that she wants me in there with her all the time, and doesn't want to be left alone in a room. She has told me that she is afraid of being alone, and doesn't know why.

Right now she is calling for Gideon, and doesn't know who he is, so I had better go in and see if it is me. It wasn't, she just called the first name that came into her head.

I have learned from reading about Alzheimer's that no two people who have it are the same, one might be violent, and lash out out his or her caregiver, while one might be still, mom's is all together different, she sees her Mom, Dad, brother's and sister, as well as my dad, and all of them have passed away. Sometimes she thinks we are living in her Grandmother's house, then sometimes she thinks she is in either a Nursing Home, Boarding Home, or a Hospital and is surprised to learn we are at Home. She also cries for no reason and doesn't know why, she also gets really confused and thinks dad left her for a younger healthier women, I have started going along with it, and have stopped reminding her that he passed away in 1997 of a heart attack brought on by the cancer he had. I learned something this last week, and was surprised to her mom say it, she never did accept that dad was gone, and wished he could come back and be with her now.

One of dad's sister's went out this last week and put some flowers on his grave, they also drove by the farm, and were surprised the new owner had a pond put in in this one little valley, She told me that it towered over the road and they had Security Camera and light all around it to keep the locals from fishing there. I am sure the Locals do not like it and do not like the new owners of our Farm, but then I am sure they do not care, since they only bought the farm to have someplace to come and hunt during Deer Season.